Billie Eilish Discusses Nightmare That Inspired 'Everything I Wanted'

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During her appearance on the latest episode of Hrishikesh Hirway's "Song Exploder" podcast, Billie Eilish discussed with her brother Finneas about the inspiration behind her 2019 single "Everything I Wanted"

"We were at the tail-end of working on Billie's debut album and we were having that sort of second-guessing moment where we thought, 'Do we have every song for this album? Should we try writing one or two more?'" Finneas said.

Eilish said she drew inspiration from a dream she had in which she died after jumping from a building. "The whole dream was me watching how everything went after I'd died," she added.

"I was there for it and I could see everything. I remember in the dream there were newspapers that said, 'Problematic 16-year-old Billie Eilish has finally killed herself.' And my best friends were doing an interview and they were like, 'Oh, we never really liked her'."

Eilish said that the nightmare reflected "everything she had been thinking put into a horrible, horrible reality" and that she "couldn't think of anything else" the following day.

Saying that she was depressed at the time and had been suicidal in the past, Eilish added that she told Finneas about the dream but he "didn't want to write about it," saying that was "kind of alarming" and he got "pretty flipped out."

"It was so intense, and because of that we didn't write the rest of it for like probably half a year," Eilish added and revealed that they revisited the song after her mental health improved. They then decided that the chorus would highlight their relationship and how they "pulled each other out of dark places."

It was then decided between the siblings that the chorus would be about their relationship and how they "pulled each other out of dark places."

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